February 2022 It’s now over three years since our world fell apart. 39 months since our darling boy happily walked out through the front door and never came home. 1213 days of barely functioning under the weight of the worst pain I have ever known -...
December 2021 ‘From the outside looking in you can never understand and from the inside looking out you can never explain…’ Three years ago I remember staring at this image and reading the words over and over again. I found it hard to believe that in one...
October 2021 I borrowed the heading from the title of an old 1944 Humphrey Bogart film. ‘To have and have not’… that’s just how it is. What appears to be a contradiction is actually reality for those of us trying to live with and without a...
September 2021 “There is a gentle ease that comes with knowing grief and being around others who know grief too. It’s a connection that allows for understanding the unspoken, a connection that makes explaining unnecessary.”@griefuncovered Three years ago I could never have imagined that I would be...
September 2021 Jude’s blackboard - Arusha Tanzania September 2018 - three years ago. I wrote this message on the blackboard at my friend’s Tanzanian apartment just a few weeks before Ben died. My husband Paul and I were having the most awesome three-week holiday in Africa. Life...
August 2021 ‘Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory’ - Dr Seuss It’s strange the things that randomly pop into your head. Simple little events that didn’t seem particularly significant at the time suddenly become beautiful memories that we thought...
June 2021 “I’ve become intimately aware of the sacred dance between despair and gratefulness. I refuse to allow the tragedy of his death to negate the beauty of his life, the depth of his impact, and the sheer joy with which he lived his days.” ⁃ Lexi...
May 2021 ‘The language of grief is spoken in silence, often through tears and insurmountable pain but it is also spoken in great love. For every tear wept and every ounce of pain felt, love is felt tenfold’. - Jessi Snapp Grief is not the same as...
April 2021 “Yellow is the perceived color of sunshine. It is associated with joy, happiness, intellect, and energy.” ⁃ Marcia Moses Photo taken just months before Ben diedhttp://www.drewmcdonald.photography/ If your child has died I’m sure you will completely understand the significance of holding on to anything that reminds us...
March 2021 “And I know you bore our sorrows And I know you feel our pain And I know it would not hurt any less Even if it could be explained" - Rich Mullins It’s two and a half years since Ben died. There are...