On 7th October 2018 normal ended and we have had to watch life go on without our darling boy.
One moment life was normal, then it wasn’t.
One moment we had a complete family, then we didn’t.
‘I used to think things like this only happened to someone else…
Now I know – we’re all someone else to someone else!’
Everyone grieves differently, every family is unique and everyone has their own story. Your story will be different to mine but whatever your loss – your world will have collapsed and changed forever. I now know there are some things you can’t possibly understand until you’ve lived them.
I’ve found unexpected comfort in being in the company of other hurting people who know something of what my kind of grief is like. I write to try and make some sense of what we all feel.
I’m trying to hold onto to any little nuggets of hope that give me just enough strength to keep putting one foot tentatively in front of the other – taking one day at a time.
It would be an honour if you would join me on this heartbreaking journey through grief.
Please use my Facebook page to keep in touch @theonemoment2020
With love
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