I wrote this post about eleven months after Ben died. It’s now nineteen months (scarily edging towards two years) and I’m staggered by how little has actually changed! I will probably spend the rest of my life learning how to dodge around a plethora of love,...

Sixteen months without Ben (written 7th Feb 2020) There really is no easy way to live with grief. Some describe it as carrying a heavy boulder on your shoulder; a raw open wound; an amputation; a stone in your shoe - things that really hurt -...

Saying goodbye - 25th October 2018 The other evening my husband Paul and I were watching ‘The Sounds of the Seventies’ on TV and Bill Withers came on singing his famous song ‘Lean on Me’. It’s a song we probably all know well but as I...

No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed This is going to be a complicated post as I try to get to grips with living with grief at the same time as living in the middle of a Coronavirus...